I am too be wed...

i am to die...yet i am dead as is.....

is there nothing after....or is there something like the humans belive...and if there is something, is it not my place to know...

humans...so like ants, and true is it still that if you dont take careful watch on them, you will soon be consumed by thier wastefulness...

i do wish to kill...but it is not my way...

i have killed many...yet not enough....i long for death...

...that is not my way...


...or is it?


perhaps ill see?...perhaps not....

Valek...all wish and powerful....yet he destroys without remorse...or does he...

he belives in "Heaven and Hell"

I belive in the earth....

this IS all there is...

and this IS out only life...

and mine is wasted... my people gone...thier land, destroied...now a building, or a parking lot, or someother concrete desert...

all the wonders ...useless...all the dreams, gone....

love...and out modeled concept...

blood..usless....

life

pointless...

humans

wasteful


WHY?


does it matter?

is it my place to question?

maybe ill see....shortly....if life starts anew once gone...or if it is truly...just that.


:he sighs and closes his journal, he is tired...so tired...but that will all change...soon enough...: